I love my job!

I love getting to be a photographer. This is a cute R&C. They are getting married this summer and this was their engagement shoot. So cute. And the best part was we just totally stumbled (thanks God) onto this really old plant warehouse. The texture was amazing! Here's one of my favs from their shoot today.

So here's a glimpse of my day...

Get up ...go to church (still feeling distant & confused)

Kade goes to lunch & movies with small group

We go to lunch with N&H (chinese...yummy!)

Come home, nap for 25 minutes.

Photoshoot starts @ 3

Take great shots of R&C for 2.5 hrs.

Come home, fam is in the backyard playing soccer

Work

Kids make nachos for dinner

Eat dinner, visit

play 3 rounds of banangrams & another word game (don't remember the name)

kiss children goodnight

edit photoshoot

kiss husband goodnight

edit photoshoot

check facebook

check twopeas

decide to blog

play 1 game of spider solitaire while the pic uploads

and here we are...

just about time to go to bed.

I had some good time with God this morning. I have been thinking about marriage. I think I married our church but our church didn't marry me. I made a long term commitment to the organization, but the organization didn't make one back. So it kind of makes me think about things from a couple of different angles.

1) people will always let you down, but Jesus won't. Make commitments with Him, have grace & forgiveness for his people.

2) Should I really have made that kind of commitment...is my loyalty causing disobedience?

3) What responsibility do "we" as the "church" have towards members. We spend lots of time "inviting new folks" to come to church with us, but what about the "old folks" with whom we've spent years serving alongside. What responsibility do we have towards them when they are feeling discomfort within our church family. If we really are family, then we can't just let them walk away without wanting to know why and without extending love to them. Yet in the church, we act as if we are a corporate environment sometimes. New "employees" (young new SS class new members) replacing old "employees" (faithful servant old members).

I think that Jesus would want us to be open in our communications and grace-filled with each other. So I am still left wondering about my responsibiilty in all this. I have been wounded, i need to forgive. i was committed, but feel as if i am to move on, which conflicts with my sense of loyalty. I will walk away and others will never know nor admit their own wrong. Is this mine to justify? Do I want to be right or righteous...a question I continue to wrestle with oh Lord. Clarify for me PLEASE!!!

G'night.

K